Confusion -Rakesh sharma

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mera naam Rakesh sharma h or meri ek gf. H Raavi hum dono ek dusre se bht pyar krte h or vo b muj pe mrti h m ap logo ko meri frndship k bare m btata hu meri or raavi ki friendship social site fb k jriye huyi thi usne aaj se 2 saal phle mere pas req send ki thi mne accept ki n hum ache friend bn gye ek din usne muj se pucha k apki wife ksi honi chahiye mne kha k mom dad ki care krne wali or mujse jyada pyar krne wali dosto humare bich bht achi achi bate hone lgi fir mne usse puch liya k apka husband ksa hona chahiye usne kha k like u to mne kha k like me mein ku nhi usne kha ok i like u mne kha m to love b krta hu usne kafi der k bad muje i love u bola uski ek usse chhoti sis h neha usne use force kiya tha han bolne k liye raavi apne mama k ghar rhti thi or vhi pdhti thi vo apne parents k pas kbi kbi ati thi n jb ati to hum chat krte the m uska besabri se intejar krta tha fir mne use phone pe bat krne k liya kha usne kha thk h krlo bt jb mne call ki to uski bhn ne pick ki n m
ujse bat krne lgi ek month tk m usse raavi smj k bat krta rha n vo mujse real m pyar krne lg gyi thi fir friendship k10 month bad hum first time mile n ek dusre se bat krte rhe fir mne ek din neha se bat ki bat krte krte mne usse avein e puch liya k m to apki sis ko lvu bol leta hu apka man ni krta kisi ko bolne ka to vo chup ho gyi mne hanste huye kha k chlo a muje bol leya kro k i lvu jiju lekin vo mujse real m e pyar krne lg gyi thi m janta tha k ye glt h bt mne socha k jmana khrab h agr kisi or k sath ho gyi to vo ise khi ka b nai chhodega mne use lvu too b bol diya neha bht beautifull h or uske pas bht offer ate h frndship k lekin vo mujse khti h k alrdy apho meri life to m ku kisi or k sath kru or dono mujse jaan se jyada pyar krti h agr m neha ko khta hu k m apko chhodna pdunga to vo khti k m jinda he ni rhungi or raavi ko is bare m nai malum h kuch b n ab m confusion m hu k kya kru or kya nai m raavi ko pyar krta hu bt m neha ko b jinda rkhna chahta hu PLEASE HELP ME.....